We’re meant to see beauty
As I grow older, I’m surprised to find that after all these years, I have a newfound knowledge of how beautiful everything has suddenly become. Were I a better writer, I could find the words to bring this beauty out of my heart and mind, and give it to you in the hope that you will recognize it for what it is. I would certainly give it as a gift to those I love the most. Where it would go from there, only God would know, for it was God that first gave it to me.
I think God must give this ability to see things beautiful to us all at a very young age but he leaves it up to the individual when to develop and use this gift. I know now that at a young age, I had the knowledge and the sight to see the beauty around me but I rarely took the time to really see and enjoy it the way that I do now. I have every excuse in the world, everyone to blame, but the fact of the matter is, I was too busy, high, drunk or whatever to really stop and enjoy this Godly gift. This is the only thing I could imagine that might make God cry.
We are meant to see how beautiful everything is. You create your own world and personality. All you have to do is figure out who you want to be and how you want the world to be, then find a way to create that person and build that world. It’s so simple. So simple that I’m brought to tears when I think of how I wasted all these years and days and hours, and I just could not see how it should be and could be.
Tonight, I looked upon my wife, Therese. She has a beauty that shines like the sun, inside and out. I cannot believe how lucky I am to have such a woman for a wife. I’m so happy that she loves me and keeps me for her husband, lover, and friend. I can only strive to be a better husband for her in the future than I was in the past. I have never loved like I love right now, and I can foresee no slowing in the process as our years together progress.
Sometimes the beauty I find in the world overwhelms me and forces my emotions up from the depths within out into the view of the world. I fear that there may be a reason some of us see the beauty and some of us don’t. I think it may have to do with the way families interact. Mothers and fathers are supposed to point out and teach us what beauty is and the fact that there is beauty in everything. Those of us who didn’t have a normal childhood missed out on that very important part of life. How can your mother show you anything if you don’t have one?
Another thing I’ve learned about beauty is the fact that it takes a lot of effort to keep it that way. Many things have to change. Cars and trucks are made to be beautiful and we all yearn to have one, to drive one, and to be beautiful ourselves as we sit inside and drive so everyone might see us. We turn the radio up so loud thinking people will hear the noise and look at us to see its source. All the while, the gas these automobiles emit is choking the life from us. In the end, it makes us sick and will eventually kill us all.
We fail to see the beauty of the Earth around us because we rush here and there looking through dirty windows unless we roll them down to throw out our hamburger wrappers. It’s all a lie we tell ourselves. The man who lies to himself and listens to his own lie comes to a point where he cannot distinguish the truth within him, or around him, and so loses all respect for himself and for others. He thinks this guy’s a jerk and that lady’s an asshole, and having no respect for others, he ceases to love and when he ceases to love, there’s no beauty for him anywhere upon this Earth.
We must take the time to find the beauty in the world and once you find it you’ll want to be worthy of the love it brings you. Once you truly believe you’re worthy of love, you’ll never settle for anyone’s second best treatment. Second best treatment will not bring us to a point in life where things flow naturally and healthily.
“Nothing that’s worthwhile is ever easy. There’s a loneliness that only exists in your mind. The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly because they are not prepared.” — F. Scott Fitzgerald
Beauty and happiness don’t come freely at first. It takes a little work to find them, but once found, everything becomes beautiful.